It has been some considerable time since I wrote in my Blog. And that too was at Full Moon. And I choose to check in on the day after the last teaching day of my 2 year School of Intuition Healing (SIH) Course. I will roughly have 1 month till the practical exam and then...well new beginnings.
Today at the Psychic Class - with Sue Allen at the SIH I learnt some invaluable lessons. Or I could say recognitions. She shared that there are 4 clairvoyant ways of seeing. Some people see with their Eyes closed internally or with their eyes open - like minds eye inside one's head or seeing the outside like a film projected, or seeing Spirit not as a film but as is part of this realm.
I have found with studying with SIH that the mechanics of working Spiritually and psychically are explored, defined and given clear instructions on 'how to'. The process is de-mystified. Tools are sharpened up. This deepens the experience. Making the Healing more specific, acurate and profound.
This led me to reflect on my Shamanic experiences. Most recently on workshops with Patricia White Buffalo and also with the Drumming Groups with Janet Jenkins and in my own in London. And how those experiences might relate to this world of SIH.
I realised that I can journey both with my Eyes closed and Open. That Spirit comes to me in a range of ways. I have sensed that this is not how everyone experiences this. The most common way of seeing for people is with eyes closed.
The other realisation I had was that within the context of SIH what I 'do' in the Drumming and Shamanic Groups could be described as 'Channelling'. Though I haven't described or thought of this in that way. Because I have been viewing those two worlds separetly. For in the Drumming/Shamanic Groups I hear and see Ancestors and Spirits with my eyes and ears open - so externally - as well as sensing them tangably. And then I feel 'moved' to give voice and movement for/with them. In these contexts I am moved - I am often ecstatic and feel impassioned. The Spirit world and I desiring for a union and expression. I am still present but the two worlds become linked. This is a deep healing.
Tonight at the Psychic Class - the task tonight was in pairs for us to swap our Guides. So that each other Guides were standing behind the other person. Then we would do a reading to the other person informed by their Guides. What was powerful for me was that I was sitting with a man who only Channels. So when his Guide stood behind me - there was time needed to negotiate, navigate and translate between us. For I did not feel I wanted to Channel. Partly because I felt inhibited because what I getting communicated was so abstract all I felt 'moved' to do would be to leap up and move and make sounds. Now if I had been in a Drumming Circle I would have felt more OK to do this. For some reason I have decided again - to separate these two worlds. What if I had gone with the flow?! What then?!....
I found myself yet again, after the class trying to explain to another student that Shamanism did not mean just working with Nature, Earth, Elementals etc. Shamanism is working with all realms. That in my understanding from my explorations; what is taught at SIH and other Spiritual/Psychic contexts - following on from the teachings of Alice Bailey and/or Madam Blavatsky (19th C and 20 C Western Esoteric Schools), is in fact a remembering, a reclaiming, an evolution from what was practiced and known in Ancient Shamanism to the present day. Of course I cannot prove this hypothesis. I can only say that I experience this from a 'knowing place' and from my own memories from Past lives. Also from what I have understood from my various investigations - books I've read on the subject and indigenous people who are Shamans who I have met and have shared their own ancestral beliefs and traditions.
This evolution is I think necessary. And I believe as does Carolyn Myss; that many more people are now being called to be Healers - and I use that term in a wide sense to include people who are artists for instance or people who embody their Spirituality in their interactions in the 'muggle' world/contexts in a range of roles. And many of those people are living part of society. They have jobs and families, children etc. And slowly bit by bit more people are exploring different Spiritual approaches. I think as more people expand from the limits of the Head space to a more expansive Heart Space - then we all will have less need for divisions/boxes/labels. I haven't yet met another student at SIH who has explored or experienced Shamanic context or WitchCraft like me. However, my fellow SIH students are interested, curious and open minded and I try to share my understanding. Which at times can be a challenge as I can struggle with translation. As I did tonight with my fellow students Guide. But this experience was an expansive one. And gave me a further appreciation and understanding as to what resonates with me. It is good to be stretched so we grow as we move beyond our comfort zones.
And so with the question was it my own limitations which inhibited me tonight or did I project that out believing the other students and the teacher would not have understood/approved? I think it was my own.